Dear Hubby, I'm Sorry I Tried To Kill Myself

This is my latest article over at The Mighty, I hadn't shared it here before but as you may gather from the title, it's a letter I wrote to my wonderful husband apologising for my 2015 suicide attempt.
He has never actually read the letter, for some reason it feels easier to share my thoughts and feelings with the world than to tell him directly. Perhaps it is because lately I have had those familiar thoughts come back to me with more darkness and intensity and I want to protect him from that, or perhaps I just want to protect myself. Seeing that look of hurt in his eyes destroys me inside and I don't think I can handle that right now.

Here is the article